no one else knows

NO ONE ELSE KNOWS
by Building 429

My world is closing in
On the inside
But I’m not showing it
When all I am is crying out
I hold it in and fake a smile
Still I’m broken
I’m broken
Only one can understand
And only one can hold the hand
Of the broken
Of the broken

When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I’ve been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in your arms
Again

I need no explanation of why me
I just need confirmation
Only You could understand the
emptiness inside my head
I am falling
I am falling
I’m falling down upon my knees
To find the one who gives me peace
I am flying
Lord I am flying

When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I’ve been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in Your arms
Again

I have come to you in search of faith
Cause I can’t see beyond this place
Oh You are God and I am man
So I’ll leave it in Your hands

At The Cross

THERE'S NO GREATER LOVE THAN THIS! =)

SILENCE

Muteness. Speechlessness. Quietness. Stillness….Hush.
What does it mean?
Is it a refusal to speak when expected?
Or is it a trait of keeping things secret?
Could it be withholding of one’s true emotions?
Or is it simply the absence of sound?
Does it mean the answer is a “yes?”
Or is it already conveying a “no?”
I don’t know with you, but for me?
Silence means…..SSssshhhh…
Silence nga eh!
I love being silent (never lang in sharing God’s Word!)
Phlegmatism at work? Yeah..sometimes.
But only in the moments of silence
God can speak right through my heart.
I shut up and listen. He communicates and louden.
And what does Proverbs 10:19 says about silence?
“When words are many, sin is not absent,
But he who holds his tongue is wise.”
I can’t actually comprehend whether it’s a yes or no
But surely, SILENCE is a good answer!

agree? =)

Toe The Line

This nail polish remover a.k.a acetone made me realized a lot of things. Umm, yeah..it's kinda weird. But this reminded me to follow (respect!) rules and regulations and to toe the line.

CHANGE PLEASE.

I went to a travel agency (located inside V.Plaza) yesterday to get my sister's passport. Good thing, madali lang akong natapos because I still have to pay the telephone bills @ PLDT (and this was around 4:30 pm na..hurry, hurry!) Kaya lang when I tried to check my purse, hala..tibuok man diay akong kwarta. For sure, wala'y kambyo ang jeepney driver ani. So I decided to buy an acetone sa grocery store for my "overstaying" na nail polish (lisod na mamatayan ug kuko!haha) and hoping na naa jud kambyo ang cashier. I went inside the grocery store and started looking for the acetone...pero wala akong makita! Then I approached a saleslady and asked her "Miss, asa dapit inyong acetone?" Then she told me, "Maam, naa sa HARDWARE po".

CHEWING THE BONE.

I asked, "Ha? Naa sa hardware? Aw..okay. Thanks." Can't help but to laugh (aw, napasmile lang diay) when I turned my back from the saleslady. But really, sige jud ko ug hunahuna..."nganong naa man sa hardware ang acetone? I used to buy this before but sure ko sa grocery store man jud nako to makita." Dili kaya namali lang ko ug pandungog? haha. Sa tantong lakaw2x nako padulong sa hardware (obedient man diay ko! well, why not give it a try anyway?), sige gihapon ko question why. And when I reached the store, "hala uy. Maulaw man ko musulod. Basi wala jud dinhi. Pero go na indai, nagdali man kaya ka?" Amazing. A few steps inside from the hardware's doorway, nakakita na ko ug signboard: Acetone and Muriatic acid sold here. Yehey! I knew it..i knew it! Haha. Bitaw oie. Natingala jud gihapon ko. Kaya nga when I approached the salesman, i grabbed the opportunity to ask him, "Sir, bakit po nandito ang acetone? Diba po dapat nasa grocery store ni?" And I was really hoping that he'll give me valid reasons (hello? effort kaya pumunta from grocery store hantod hardware.hehe.joke lang!) True enough, he gave me answers which led me to those realizations i mentioned above. "Ginacheck naman gud ni sa PDEA maam."


IDEA ON PDEA .

PDEA stands for Philippine Drug Enforcement Ageny. Some of their duties are:

* To cause the efficient and effective implementation of the national drug control strategy formulated by the Dangerous Drugs Board;
* Arrest and apprehend as well as search all violators and seize or confiscate the effects or proceeds of the crimes as provided by law;
* Take charge and have custody of all dangerous drugs and/or controlled precursors and essential chemicals seized, confiscated or surrendered to any national, provincial or local law enforcement agency.

Source: http://pdea.gov.ph/power-and-duties.php


DIGGING MORE INFO.

"Ah, Mao ba? Why pud daw sir?" Kay ginagamit man ang acetone and muriatic acid para pampaputi sa drugs, he answered. Then he looked for a valid ID, got my name and address--signature pa! Ani na jud diay ka strict maski sa tag Php 13 lang na acetone? Kuyawa na ani uy.

STILL CHEWING THE BONE.

On my way na sa pldt (oie, nakambyuhan diay ko sa cashier!hehehe), daghan kaayo ko naapreciate and nalearn. Yup2x..in fairness, naapreciate nako pag-ayo ang situation. I mean, V.Plaza's management are doing their part in cooperation with the PDEA (haven't checked yet kung ani pud ba sa ubang malls here in Davao) Henceforth, that's submission to authority..tama? (i salute u guys!) We should really submit to our delegated authorities! Mapa-biological, spiritual, sa school or even sa government. We cannot say I'm a good citizen if sa simpleng pagtawid lamang sa pedestrian ay hindi natin masunod-sunod. We cannot say I'm a good student if sa simpleng projects and assignments na binibigay ng teacher eh hindi natin magawa (add mo pa mga libak towards them!tsk3x). And we really cannot say Im a good Christian if ang mga commands written in the bible, hindi rin natin mafollow2x (I remembered my devo kahapon. In Deut.29--THE RENEWAL OF THE COVENANT. verse 9 says, "Carefully follow the terms of this covenant, so that you may prosper in everything.") and we tend to disobey pa our spiritual parents/leaders. John Bevere, author of the book UNDER COVER was right when he quoted, "Every soul is to be subject to authorities because God has appointed all governing authorities. The origin of all authority goes back to God...Since God has appointed all authorities, we refuse the authority behind them if we dishonor or refuse to submit to them. Whether we know it or not, we resist the ordinance or rule of God. When we oppose God's delegated authority, we oppose God Himself."

Romans 13:1 - Everyone must submit himself to governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established. The authorities that exist have been established by God.

Hahai..Buti na lang acetone, na-encounter kita kahapon! =)

my childhood mem-mwah-ries! =)

CHILDHOOD IS...
by Jackie A. Shaddow

Childhood is hanging your pictures on the refrigerator
and tea parties you always have to cater.
Childhood is chasing butterflies and picking flowers,
playing with blocks and making towers.

Childhood is hating nap time,
and thinking everything is always mine
Childhood is crayons and coloring books,
Playing hide and go seek in all the right nooks.

Childhood is falling asleep to your favorite lullaby,
wishing you had wings so you could soar into the sky.
Childhood is only crying over a scrapped knee,
or being stung by a bumble bee

Childhood is thinking boys have cooties,
or your mom making you wear itchy booties.
Childhood is ruining mommy's new leather,
and making friends and keeping them forever.
Childhood finally ends,
When you start to grow up
And not having to drink out of a sippy cup.

The Glass Slipper

There once was a lovely young lady who lost her shoe at a ball. She was so special that her prince searched through an entire kingdom of other young ladies to try and find her. He tried her shoe on several feet, until at last he found her. Yes, I am sure you have heard of this girl before—Cinderella.

Well, Cinderella’s shoe is somewhat like having the best person as your future mate. God in His infinite wisdom has a shoe that is just for you. Maybe someone else wants your shoe or maybe you think that you want someone else’s, but we all know what happens when our shoes don’t fit properly—Blisters! Trying to force your feet into an ill fitted relationship is bound to cause discomfort. And I don’t know about you, but when my shoes are too tight, it makes me feel grouchy! Being in a relationship that is not suited for you can also have a negative effect on your life. Yikes! This sounds pretty serious. So, what can you do to make sure that you are heading in a relationship that God wants you to be? Well, first you need to pray about it (especially when the heart beats "tugudugdug" for a certain person) That might sound cliché, but if you sincerely seek the Lord in this area, He will lead you to His Will for your life, He'll tell you whether he is the right person or not. Secondly, ask someone you trust like your discipler or a parent (well, i've got momidebz and momsie!) They can help you plug in to areas that you may have never considered--pagpamunga, youth reload and opencell. woohoo! And that's what you call actively waiting.

May this short entry reminds you (and me!) that true love can really wait. Be determined and have faith. Your prince is surely on his way and he's carrying one glass shoe that will fit perfectly for you! =)

Up, Up and Away!

1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
Up, up and away!

2. If you marry the last person you texted (opposite sex), what would your last name be?
waaahh! **Barroga** tsk3x. i can't imagine. haha.

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
Definitely! Power devo, by the way. =)

4. When were you last on the phone? With whom?
Last night with best friend Yvette.

5. Have you talked to a complete jerk today?
None so far.

6. Listening to music?
Yup! Sea of faces by Kutless.

7. What are you excited for?
Having 100 cells before the year ends!! woohoo! (God's grace)

8. What were you doing yesterday?
Baby sitting my favorite and handsome pamangkin; went to UPmin for UPY2DN connexon nyt (6pm)

9. Honestly, who was the last person who told you he/she loves you?
Mi doce hijas. They never get tired of telling that to me...uumm, same here!

10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
H2O.

11. Do you have a best friend? What's his/her name?
Elizabeth Azucenas. My BF since grade five (elem)

12. Are you scared to fall in love?
Not at all. It's actually one of the best things that ever happened to me!

13. Have you been in love?
Always and forever. =)

14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
eh? that's so mean! i don't have any plans of following manny pacquiao's footsteps.

15. What time is it right this second?
9:45 am.

16. What do you want right now?
144. 1728. and the multitudes! **hinam-hinam mode**

17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
My dearly beloved Chair (ate ating!) using Kiara's laptop.

18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
S-I-N-G-L-E and happy! =)

19. When was the last time you cried?
2 days ago. whew! Lambingan moments with my Father.

20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
I have the best relationship with the best parents in the whole wide world! I'm so blessed to have them both.

21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
Nope. But once that trust is broken, it won't be easy for me to trust again. =(

22. How fast does your mind change?
Case to case basis. haha.

23. I bet you miss somebody right now.
You bet!

24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
I'm not just okay. I'm better than yesterday!

25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
It's because of having an "old nature." We don't need to have the "better version of our old selves", we've got to have a "new nature!"

26. Tell me what's on your mind?
Is this facebook? Alright. "I'm soooo excited for my opencell @ city triangle with some of the addu's beautiful and gorgeous students. Naks!!"

27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
i'll repeat, having 100 cells! weeeeeh! uum..gifts, gifts and more gifts for Christmas (gifts to give and gifts to receive. yey!)

28. Do you have somebody you don't talk to?
Due to some personal reasons, yes.

29. When did you last talk to your special someone?
What do you mean special someone? haha. well, my twelve are my special someone(s) as of now. We communicate every single day!

30. When is your next road trip?
My road trips are unplanned yet. But if travelling from buhangin to acacia is considered as a road trip, then that would be later this afternoon.

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
I do have.

32. How's your heart?
Thanked God it is still beating! "every heartbeat, for Your glory..take me!"

33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
Having that "not-so-important-feeling" is not significant to me. So, my answer is I can't remember anything regarding this one.

34. Do you think somebody's in love with you??
I think so. Haha. Well, you gotta be in love with me, Isaac!! [being in love with the idea that there's already somebody else waiting, dreaming and praying/fasting for me.] sobrang cheesy!

35. What are you planning to do after this?
pay telephone bills @ ponciano, deposit money @ DBP, get ditsi am's passport @ v.plaza and open cell @ citi tri.

36. Next time you will kiss someone?
good night kiss for baby seth.

37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
ahuh! my las hermosas hijas and baby seth.

38. Who do you get along with?
Usually, my family, hijas primary twelve, my LHH, bcc peepz and open cell members.

39. What does your third text on your phone say?
from spiritual sissie Darling: "aw, uki2x."

40. What are you wearing right now?
White Davao GH T-shirt (with verse at the back, Psalm 100:5 - The Lord is good, His love endures forever...) and green shorts.

41. You're locked in a room with the person you liked most, how is it?
I'll just ask him 1 question: "How will we be able to get out from this room?"

42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
Never tasted it before.

43. What's your fave boy and girl name right now?
Isaac and Rebekah. Period. haha.

44. How did you feel when you woke up?
Thankful. =)

45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
yeah!!!! my "fishes" from DMMA and SPC. (i'm wondering when will they become part of my opencell/ say "yes" to my invitation..hhhmm..)

46. Do you crack your knuckles?
Way back in college. I used to do it when I'm tensed.

47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Sleeping and dreaming (???)

48. What are your LEGAL initials?
M.R.B.M.

49. Who's the first B in your contacts?
Balance Inquiry!!! hahaha. Bambi's next (my classmate in high school)

50. when was the last time you laughed really hard?
Last night @ UP Y2DN, when we had our picture2x session with chair and some of my girls using hija_kiara and hija_ruby's laptop.

51. Your close friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
I don't have close friends who walked out of my life yet. But if ever, yes. Coz that's how i treasure them (ok, it wont happen anyway **cross-fingers**)

52. Last joyful moment.
UPY2dn connexon last night.

53. Are you afraid of the dark?
Nope. Question, is the dark afraid of me? ahaha.

54. Do you have good vision?
20/20 vision! yey!

55. Have you ever tripped someone?
Yeah, when I was in high school. i'm so bugai! good thing, i've changed---God changed me!

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
Nope.

57. Are you Irish?
Pinay.

58. Do you use chap stick?
Once. When we had lunch in one of the churches in Singapore. Trying-hard-me!

59. Do you have any scars?
yup2x. These were my remembrance of having a joyful and ki-at na childhood. =)

60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
None.

61. Are you dating the person you last held hands with?
Yvette? we're planning to have a date.

62. Name the last person to texted you?
Momidebz!!!!! She texted, "Blessed day mga anak! Hows u? Anyweiz, i can kol...Who wants me to kol u? Hehe, ala lang. just want to encourage u all to produce young and great leaders. fruitfulness, fertility, abundant production..Hows ur to b reg ba mga cells? ang mga to be planted, nasugdan na? Gogogo nak, go fyt win! "Taking beyond". I love you, n thank u po." ----aaaawww..isn't she sweet??? i love her so much! =)

63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
huh? Sure thing! if God says so.

64. Can you go in public looking like you do now?
Never!

66. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
right side.

67. What’s the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
Pray. "Thank You Lord for bringing him to me!"

68. Do you fall for a guy/girl easily?
Nope. Proverbs 4:23 - Above all else, GUARD (my!) YOUR HEART, for it is the wellspring of life.

69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
mi doce hijas pa rin!

70. Do you miss the way things used to be?
Nope. Im only excited of "how things gonna be" in the future.

71. Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
this is an awkward question. tsk3x. uuumm..yes.

72. Song you're thinking of right now?
LSS: Savior, He can move the mountain. My God is mighty to save, He is mighty to save!!

73. Last awkward moment?
When you asked me number 71 question. ahaha.

74. Will tomorrow be better than today?
t'will always be.

75. What’s the colour of your shirt you are wearing?
White.

76. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
ahuh. heehee...

77. Does it bother you when someone lie to you?
Yup. so much.

78.Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
Everybody understands why i'm still single!!! uhm, except for some relatives and friends i guess.

79.Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
Sanguines are naturally happy people!

80.Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
funny. is this a "save-d-best-for-last" question? haha. well, yes!!! No one else but Isaac. =)

Cinderella (by Steven Curtis Chapman)

She spins and she sways
To whatever song plays
Without a care in the world
And I'm sitting here wearing
The weight of the world on my shoulders

It's been a long day
And there's still work to do
She's pulling at me
Saying "Dad, I need you

There's a ball at the castle
And I've been invited
And I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone...

She says he's a nice guy and I'd be impressed
She wants to know if I approve of the dress
She says, "Dad, the prom is just one week away
And I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

She will be gone

Well, she came home today with a ring on her hand
Just glowing and telling us all they had planned
She says, "Dad, the wedding's still six months away
But I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

Proverbs 31 Woman

What does “virtuous” mean according to Proverbs 31:10?

Who can find a virtuous woman? For her price is far above rubies.
Proverbs 31:10

The old Hebrew meaning for the word VIRTUOUS means “a woman of strength,” or a woman made strong by God-given wisdom and grace. It is the exact same term used in the Bible when describing good judges. There is an inherent meaning to it that says this woman is centered, resolute, firm, and steady, with good principles and moral character. This is the main point and bigger picture of the verses to follow… a woman of strength such as this is hard to find, yet it is what we are to strive to be!

Songwriters Luke Easter and Dee Cheeks wrote this thought-provoking portrayal of a strong woman versus a woman of strength:

A strong woman
works out every day to keep her body in shape . . .
but A woman of strength
kneels in prayer to keep her soul in shape . . .

A strong woman
isn't afraid of anything . . .
but A woman of strength
shows courage in the midst of her fear . . .

A strong woman
won't let anyone get the best of her . . .
but A woman of strength
gives the best of her to everyone . . .

A strong woman
makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future . . .
A woman of strength
realizes life's mistakes can also be God's blessings and capitalizes on them . . .

A strong woman
walks sure footedly . . .
but A woman of strength
knows God will catch her when she falls . . .

A strong woman
wears the look of confidence on her face . . .
but A woman of strength
wears grace . . .

A strong woman
has faith that she is strong enough for the journey . . .
but A woman of strength
has faith that it is in the journey that she will become strong . . .

Now do you see a picture of this virtuous woman, this woman of strength? Trusting in God, giving to others, clothed in grace, knowing that in this journey of life God has a plan and purpose for her life, that in the end, she will be made strong? She knows that in her weaknesses, His strength is made perfect (2 Corinthians 12:9).

This woman, not the perfect woman we associate so often with Proverbs 31, but this woman who has weaknesses and is being used by God to show His perfect strength… this is the woman Proverbs 31 is really about.

Although you may not see it, God is at work in your life, making you into a young woman of His strength. His strength is being made perfect right in the middle of your weakness, and you are worth more to Him than the most precious jewels you can ever imagine.

Unique_Ka_Hijas Primary Twelve

We're taking position, taking possession! MAS mosanay, MAS managhan, MAS mamunga...HIJA3X! Network leader: Deborah Tutor. Her Twelve: Ma. Rebekah, Armie Love, Karen, Rose Marie, Rosalie, Haide Mae, Darling, Rose Ann, Kristel, Jessel, Frolaine, Jennelle Rizza. =)

Twenty-Nine (29) and Counting...

Since I was a pupil, Mathematics was never on the list of my fave subjects. Paano ba naman? kahit anong pilit kong i-love ang subject na iyan, tila ang Math ang may ayaw sa akin. Hahaha. But lately, it's as if im beginning to love it---naturally. It may not be the x=y+m to the nth power, algebra, calculus thingy but instead, the simple mathematical operations lang [addition, subtraction, MULTIPLICATION and division] I thought that Im so good at it back then (elem-college) only to find out that super hina diay kaayo ko ana pag-apply na sa "Law of the Scoreboard." Honestly, I was rebuked (rebuked man jud?hehe) when somebody told me/us na "kung dili ka masaligan sa ginagmay na butang, dili sad ka masaligan sa dinagko na butang." Or in other words, kung dili ka (ako!) kabalo mu-record/ keep track sa growth sa imong network na gamay pa lang mo, maglisod si Lord ug hatag sa multitudes! tsk3x. What a big check! Sayang lang, mao ra nay check na dili mapakambyuhan sa bank. hahahaha. But i took it as a challenge. From that moment on, mao ra gyud akong gihuna2x/ i should say, part na xa sa akong top priorities--ang magcount! And i know deep inside, I am changing. I was struggling at first due to mindset na "Sanguine [San-phleg to be specific] man gud ko---never a melancholic. It's not my forte to do some lista2x and everything." But that was just a mindset---a bad mindset! And so I started making a draft sa paper with what I'm going to type sa computer. While doing it, Im uttering breath prayers..."Lord, thank You for breaking my mindset. Help me in doing this. Give me more ideas on how to make my network's scoreboard simple, understandable and creative." I came up with two tables: The Las Hermosas Hijas' Monthly Fishing Record and The Las Hermosas Hijas' Monthly Scoreboard (# of Opencells, Average # of people attending the cell, # of disciples under mentoring, # of dicsiples will undergo pepsol,etc.) I am so excited in using these tables especially during our close cell meetings! Ang pinakalingaw na akong nadiscover (by using these tables!) kay 29 opecells na diay under the Las Hermosas Hijas network! 12 registered opencells, 17 to be registered. Lingaw jud. Coz if I haven't used these powerful tool, always na lang jud 14 cells lang ang akong nahibal-an operating in our network. Na-AMAZED jud ko! Hahaha. Ang mas naka-amazed pa, there are 158 opencells---and counting (registered, to be registered, to be planted) sa Unique_ka_hijas network! WOW, c Lord na jud ani tanan. I mean, GRASYA jud Niya ni tanan. Buti na lang, the Hijas' network is already learning the "counting culture." Medjo ala jud namo ni na-praktis sa una. And buti na lang, i discovered na i can be soooo melancholic pud jud diay. haha. Im even more encouraged to expose pa my melan temperament. Daghan na pud kaayo ko plans! And by His grace, mahan-ay ra pud tanan.

** IF I CHANGE, EVERYTHING CHANGES!**

**YAWN!**

1.What is the age difference between you and your youngest sibling?
-I'm the youngest. next question please.

2. Do you believe that there is always room in your heart for your first true love?
- yup2x. i reserved that room just for him =)

3.Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
- NBSB po ako. and even if i have one, never pud ko magwish/magpray ana.

4. Why did you hug the last person you hugged?
- because of love [tita bek loves baby seth so much!]

5. have unlimited texting?
-yup. twice a week. the rest? all text 20 na.

6. What is your profile song and why?
- From the Inside Out by Hillsong. Para match sa akong blogsite! =) and iLove that song rin.

7. Where will you be tonight?
- @ home, babysitting.

8. Who is the last person called you on your phone?
-ditsi am. i missed her soooo much! =(

9. Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
- of course. and i STRONGLY believe that God orchestrated everything--pwera permissive will,add mo pa mga consequences.

10. How many showers do you take a day?
- once for 'normal' days. twice pag-igang kaau.

11. Are you mean?
- nope. Galatians 5:22- But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Thank You Jesus for changing me =)

12. Who do you trust the most in your life?
- God. non-negotiable.

14. Do you have a pet?
-uu. Happy and Martin (dogs)

15. Would you change your name?
-never. we should be more concerned in changing our "nature".

16. Do you have allergies?
- yup. i'm allergic to dust and perfumes (iregards na lang ko sa akong allergic rhinitis pagmaka-encounter ko ana)

17. If the person who hurt you the most in your life apologized and told you they love you what would you do?
- FORGIVE.

18. Last time you had a yummy chocolate?
- Last night. it's a pasalubong from atsi hazel.

19. Do you feel like going abroad?
-Definitely! G12 conference in Singapore nextyear, Medical mission trip in Cambodia (march), and Hongkong Disneyland (by faith!)

20. Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
- sabi nang NBSB po ako. haha.

21. Do you like to have long hair or short hair? Why?
-Long hair. para girly kaayo.

22. What about on the opposite sex?
- clean cut. long hair for men is a BIG NO-NO for me!

23. Do you like french fries?
- a lot! Jabee french fries =)

24. When is the next time you're going out?
- Tomorrow (Sept.22,09) evening (UP Y2DN connexon nyt/Lorenzo Hall)

25. When is your birthday?
- ika-15 ng Mayo.

27. Do you like to work with little kids?
- are little kids working already? hehe. Playing cguro (or cge, doing their assignments sa skul) Well, yes. iLove children. Nakakabata rin when I'm with them. =)


28. Where are your mom and dad?
- Momsie @ Hope mountain with her beloved doce (prayer and fasting). Popsie? Nagpaayos ata sa sakyanan. Holiday man gud!

29. Do you love them?
- SUPER DUPER! =)

30. What do you miss most about your past?
- Nothin'. iLove my new nature (singing: no no no, never ah ah ah..i'll never go back anymore!)

31.When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
- haha. i don't accept hugs from men even if it's for free (FREE HUG?!hehe) c popsie? i don't hug him..kiss lang!

32. What do you carry with you at all times?
- marami! but my favorite? my FISHLIST. =)

33. Who is the last person of the opposite sex that made you smile?
- nah, can't remember. how will i be able to identify kung ang lahat rin ng mga tiga BCC ay laging masaya? kasi, iSmile whenever i see them happy.

dance with a prince

A wall flower sitting patiently
Waiting for her prince, who could it be?
Watching the others dance away
On the bench is where she stays.

The music changes to a subtle tune
The lights go dim throughout the room
Everything turns into a smokey haze
As across the room she sees his gaze.

His hand extended to offer a dance
Could this be her true romance?
Gently she stands onto her feet
Her head pressed against him, hearing his heart beat.

She feels so secure in his warm embrace
And looks up to see the smile upon his face
As he dances her around the room
She knows this will have to end soon.

As she looks up into his eyes
He can see that she wants to cry
A tear escapes down her cheek
He holds her tight as she feels weak.

A buzzing sound fills the air
Their eyes lock into a stare
A whisper goodbye is all she can fathom
As the alarm clock buzzes twelve.

Alone she wakes in her cold bed
This was just a dream in her head
But as she turns to start the day
On her pillow a red rose lay.

With it no note, or a name to know
Just a rose tied with a gold bow
But in her heart she knows it was him
And one day they will come together to meet again.

Precious Mama

My mom is full of love and grace
I love the smile upon her face
Even on those cloudy days
She has a heart that's full of praise

Her children mean the world to her
When we need help she's there for sure
She often prays to GOD above
He always hears with unfailing love

Throughout life she had many hard times
Each battle made her stronger releasing the binds
Mom you're precious in my sight
You've given me encouragement in the darkest night

Every day with you is a special day
I love you so much there aren't enough words to say
I really thank GOD that you're my mother
In all the world I wouldn't have chose another

**Just want to say I love you with all of my heart, MOMSIE!**

\i-ZEK\

After hearing the Word [Abraham: Dare to start with zero] shared by Ptr. Butch in Youth Reload last night, I asked myself: "Lord, unsa pa man jud ang 'Isaac' sa akong life na wala pa nako nahatag sa Imo?" **search-my-heart-oh-Lord-mode** then the next question followed..."Lord, kinsa jud kaha si 'Isaac' na Imong ginaprepare for me?" haha. **kilig-mode** dayon. Dali ra kaayo nagshift noh? But honestly, I was so serious at this very moment... seryoso kaayo sa pakig 1-on-1 with my Father. Hahay...Isaac, Isaac, Isaac, sino at ano ka ba talaga sa buhay ko?

I was able to understand more that Isaac has two faces jud diay (huh?!hehe..anggulo po ang ibig sabihin niyan) .

1st. Isaac: My burnt offering/s that's been sacrificed nah or to be sacrificed pa.

Gen 22:2

Then God said, "Take your son, your only son, Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains I will tell you about."

For two years of being [so-sold-out] sa Vision, daghan2x na pud jud diay gipangayo si Lord sa akoa na grasya ra pud Niya na nakatuon pud jud ko ug hatag. Pagkalingaw. Nabungkag gyud ang akoang "pangkaugalingong mga damgo"---damgo na abi nako, mao na to...pero di pa diay mao. Ug sa paghatag nako ato tanan, ang pag "receive" na pud ang akong gitun-an. Both giving and receiving were not that easy as one-two-three. Why? Because when I gave up that something/ those things, hindi ko po maipagkakaila na nayayay jud ang akong heart [ father Abraham? Have you felt the same thing when you were asked to sacrifice Isaac? Haha, appear po tayo!] Sa receiving naman, siyempre...it was paired with responsibility. "Kakayanin ko kaya?" But I TRUSTED the Lord. I took one step at a time. Hinay-hinay pero kanunay. There were times that I failed, but He made me resilient and gave me the ability to bounced back. Pero...pero...pero... lahat nang iyon ay nasa pangnakaraan. Ako ngayon ay nasa pangkasalukuyan na. Ang importante, ang karon--unsa na pud ang akong ihatag ug mahatag kay Lord puli sa 'mas' dinagkong plano Niya for me. Willing pa man jud gihapon ko---more pa, more pa! [Isa lang jud akong hangyo Lord..since to the next level naman ni, kabalo pud ko na mas dako2x na pud Imo pangayuon. Tudlui lang jud ko, andami ko--huna2x, kasing2x ug ang tibuok na pagka-ako] =)


2nd. Isaac: master sa servant na mameet nako by the well (gets mo?haha.gets ko! read Genesis 24 na lang--my fave "love story chapter" ever! But if you want a summary of it, here it is!)

Gen 24:3

Abraham: I want you to swear by the Lord, the God of heaven and the God of earth, that you will not get a wife for my son from the daughters of the Canaanites, among whom I am living,

Gen 24:4

but will go to my country and my own relatives and get a wife for my son Isaac."

Gen 24:14

May it be that when I say to a girl, 'Please let down your jar that I may have a drink,' and she says, 'Drink, and I'll water your camels too'--let her be the one you have chosen for your servant Isaac. By this I will know that you have shown kindness to my master."

Gen 24:15

Before he had finished praying, Rebekah came out with her jar on her shoulder. She was the daughter of Bethuel son of Milcah, who was the wife of Abraham's brother Nahor.

Gen 24:16

The girl was very beautiful, a virgin; no man had ever lain with her. She went down to the spring, filled her jar and came up again.

Gen 24:26

Then the man bowed down and worshiped the Lord,

Gen 24:28

The girl ran and told her mother's household about these things.

Gen 24:50

Laban and Bethuel answered, "This is from the Lord; we can say nothing to you one way or the other.

Gen 24:51

Here is Rebekah; take her and go, and let her become the wife of your master's son, as the Lord has directed."

Gen 24:58

So they called Rebekah and asked her, "Will you go with this man?" "I will go," she said.

Gen 24:60

And they blessed Rebekah and said to her, "Our sister, may you increase to thousands upon thousands; may your offspring possess the gates of their enemies."

Gen 24:62

Now Isaac had come from Beer Lahai Roi, for he was living in the Negev.

Gen 24:63

He went out to the field one evening to meditate, and as he looked up, he saw camels approaching.

Gen 24:64

Rebekah also looked up and saw Isaac. She got down from her camel

Gen 24:65

and asked the servant, "Who is that man in the field coming to meet us?" "He is my master," the servant answered. So she took her veil and covered herself.

Gen 24:67

Isaac brought her into the tent of his mother Sarah, and he married Rebekah. So she became his wife, and HE LOVED HER; and Isaac was comforted after his mother's death.

haha. I know, i know...kulang na lang ang whole chapter na akong ibutang dinhi (nagsummarized pa ko?!haha) But what can i do? Ganyan ko ka-love ang Genesis 24. =)

Anyway, back to "my" Isaac. Cge, aaminin ko na. Ako'y kinikilig kapag pinag-uusapan xa (ginasturyahan jud diay?aw, uu..especially pag kami ni Lord magsturya!) Paano ba naman? Siya'y isang taong hindi ko talaga "kilala" [Aw, maski kinsa man pud na naa sa **waiting stage** kay wala pa jud kaila sa ilang future power of one. Unless, gireveal na ni Lord na siya na jud] Yup2x, **excited-mode** na kaayo ko to meet him. [Genesis 24:63,64] 1st eye contact, then 1st hello. **tugudugdug ang heart** My next line : "it is you pala!!". Then he'll say, "yes, it's me!!" FAST FORWARD. He'll ask: Will you marry me? **tugudugdug pa rin ang heart** And I'll answer: I will..I WILL!

haha. Maxadong madrama. pero ganahan ko. klarong pinaghandaan? dili. ginadamgo lang. May it be ani man or dili ang meeting namo ni Ice (kyut nickname!), maski asa! basta sure2x lang na si Lord nag-andam ug arrange sa tanan. Somebody asked me, kaminyuon na ba daw ko?? Oooppsss..i thought, exempted ko ana na question. Dili diay. Sa bagay, 23 naman pud ko.. musugot man ko ug sa dili, muabot jud ko dinha [pasabta, maski sa akong bible readings, marriage2x ang ginahisgutan..ginaandam na jud ko Nimo, Lord?) Tubagon nako? tubagon jud nako? haha. Actually, dili pa. Excited lang. But I just want to explain something. Before, pag naa mangutana at what age ko maminyo....my usual [aw,ok.cge, constant!] answer is 28 years old jud. Kay mao pud ang naa sa akong heart. Daghan kaayo ko gusto pa buhaton, gusto himuon, ma-accomplish, etc2x.. But now? lahi na akong tubag. Dili na specific age but, "si Lord na ang bahala" (special thanks to ate ating! one of the best mentor jud pag-abot sa heart..na-open jud ko ani na idea..binuakay pud ni ba!) Next year na ba, 2 years, 3 years, 5 years from now..sugot na ko basta si Lord ang nagsulti ug naghan-ay. Basta ang tanan, sulod sa Iyang time-table, wala'y problema. [my oh my..by faith na jud ni..hangyo na pud ko Lord ha? Andama jud ko..aw, andama pud xa.hehe]

Murag taas2x na jud ni nga blog ba [sabta na lang, si Isaac man gud ang topic.hehehe] Pero if there's one thing na pinakanasabtan nako ani tanan, mao ni: ISAAC ONE and ISAAC TWO ARE SO CONNECTED/INTERRELATED! yup2x.. I was able to understand that I cannot have/ ask for Isaac two if I haven't given up Isaac one. In surrending everything to the Lord (esp. with the things na Iyang ginapangayo), naa ju'y reward. Sa bagay, mas nauna man pud ang Genesis 22 kesa Genesis 24, right? That would simply mean, una sa jud c Lord before si "future partner in life.

Mat 6:33

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Masaya ito! =)

I'll Stay

I was once in somene else’s field

Where I laughed, I learned, loved and lived

Only to know that it wasn’t really for me

For the real threshing floor awaits my eyes to see

In Your field I found myself working for the harvest

Picking up the grains, gathering the sheaves I gave my best

Being too busy with it, I didn’t noticed of the time

I haven’t even seen You–the field’s Owner Who went by

Kinsman-Redeemer, a Man of standing they used to call You

For there’s a kindness in Your heart so genuine and true

But why have I found such favor in Your eyes?

That You noticed me–a woman still paying the price

Oh You Who have given me with so much love

Cared for my purity and held me like a dove

I will forever be embraced by Your long strong arms

Yes, I’ll stay in Your field that causes me no harm

by: maryaribekah. aug2008

A Wise and Understanding Heart

A wise and understanding heart does not repay a hurt with a hurt. In doing so, the heart is diminished. Fissures form. Love leaks out. It is no longer defined by love, wisdom and understanding. It is redefined by the bearers of hurt and hate, meanness and madness, sorrow and sadness. You give away control of your very own heart.

The despair of being hurt is healed by overcoming it, not clinging to the hurt and inflicting more of it on the world. When darkness is added to darkness, no one can see, and no one can love. Everyone loses.

Love is not always warm and fuzzy. Sometimes it’s the integrity we hold on to when we’re tempted to strike back. Sometimes it’s the honor that keeps us from exchanging the valuable contents of our heart for the harsh satisfaction of lashing back. No, the way of love is not always easy, but when night falls, dawn is assured.

The integrity and honor of a wise and understanding heart, rises with the sun of a new day. "Because you have asked for understanding to discern judgment. I have given you a wise and understanding heart." 1 Kings 3:11-12

Live a loving life!

[copyright july2007. reposted]